I lost my friend a week before christmas…

(Margaretha Dwi Hastuti)

His name is Dominic Colucci. He lives in Los Angeles, America but I don’t know the exact. We met around 6 months ago through one site. At the first time, I never thought that our friendship become like this…this close….this personal…

But suddenly, a week before Christmas, a time for sharing our love, our hope, our soul, our dream….I lost him…. I lost someone that I never met, but unfortunately play a bit important role in my life….
Now I really understand the proverb that said, it’s no matter how long you enter this world or someone’s life, one thing that really matter is how you touch that someone’s life through your presents….

He’s around 40 years old man….his appearance is like Santa Claus….he is really really like santa claus…except wearing red outfit….hehehe…he is my close friend in one site….in this site, we (the member of the site) write our intention in our life on daily basis…and our friends can support our intent by clicking the plus (+) button….it means, you support your friend’s intention….Sometimes we left a note for friend with that intention….mostly, we bless each other….this is a really good site….can you imagine that someone who live across the universe read your intention today and giving you supports and blessings? I’m glad that I become a part of this community….in this cruel world…we still share goodness in our life….that is really nice….

I virtually met Dom (he likes to be called like this) at the first time when he was clicking to support my intention…..and soon I added him to be my friend…we had contact each other through email at this site…and I realize that this guy is a really good guy….he often write in his blog…mostly about meditation, about nature, about God, about peace, about happiness….and I love his writing so much…although sometimes I don’t understand what he was talking about….especially when he wrote about Zhen….

Until oneday, I wrote to him, I told him how I love to read his writing…and I told him that I love to make some kind of writing too….but I don’t have the bravery to post it to that site…mostly because my English is not really good….and simply he asked me to post my writing to that site…he told me, although I do my writing in bahasa Indonesia, he crystal clear understand what I’m talking about…because he read it with heart….and he told me, that my English is not bad….I made a few email contact after that…just say hi, or tell him about something that bother my mind….and simply he told me to do this…to do that…without being a jugde for me….and for me, I can accept everything he told me….he is very wise guy…..the most lovable thing he did to me was….he always end up his note or email with this simple sentence : God Bless You Sunflower, beautiful soul angel of God… and he gave cross sign as blessings with plus (+) sign…. And I really appreciate it so much….somehow, the way he gave me that sentence and that sign had made a deep peaceful feeling in my heart…and the most important thing is…he called me SUNFLOWER…..

Unfortunately, few weeks later, I’m not write to him anymore because one silly thing : I’M BUSSY… I DON’T HAVE TIME….when I finally have a time to visit that site, the site was underconstruction, because it was hacked by someone….for the next two months, this site become a “read only” site….I can not write there…and I can not contact Dom by email….finally this December, I go to this site, and checking is everything going better…and…yess….the site is back…but some button menus are delete for some security reason….and the buttons are “friend” and “mail”….I can not contact Dominic colucci anymore….one thing that makes me wanna cry is….I never think to ask his private email address….I totally can’t contact him…and I realize…. I lost my good guy…someone whom I never met, but leave me with strong feeling that I lost him….

I try to find him through facebook…I write down his name in the search button….yess….there was Dominic Coluccis….why did I write in plural form? Because…..there are more than 100 person named Dominic Colucci….Which one is my Dom?….don’t have any idea….some of the “Dominic Colucci” not even give their picture….
Yess…. I lost my virtual good guy…my virtual second father….I lost Dominic Colucci….

And I feel sad….deeply sad….

A week ago I was stung with some problem, and finalIy had tears in my eyes…..I was trying hard not to cry…but the tears still can’t cooperate with me…..at that moment, I think : Wish I had Dom now….he always know what to tell…he always know how to make me feel better…. Wish I had Dom now….

To Dominic Colucci…..my good guy….my wise guy….wherever you are…whatever you do…..I’m sending a lot of Christmas blessings for you! I’m glad to meet you and be friend with you… I LOVE YOU DOM, and I MISS YOU…. Hugs….. –sunflower-

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